OK so a week ago I visited a friend in CA to see her new baby and it was nice we did not do much but I didn't plan to do much but see the baby so it worked. I cooked for us and we watched the US Open cause Venice was still in the running. Anyway all was good Monday Morning when I left. But when I got to the Airport I noticed a ticket on the window of the car and that is the start of it all. My flight was delayed, and packed. When I got home to CHGO it was raining no biggie. My husband was there waiting for me that was all that was important. When we met up he told me that my friend had called before I got home and talked to him about my weight and how she was concerned. This bothered me on 2 levels 1. She had already talked to me about it. and 2. She's is my friend and only knows Andre through me but now she is going into an off limit area. This I feel would make him think about me differently like how pathetic I am that I have no real friends that the ones that I have cannot even talk to me about their concerns. It has been a weeks since he told me and I cannot get my mind off of it. I just did my work this week and existed. On Saturday I had a hair appt. and needed to take my Laptop to FEDEX to send it back (when I went to use it Monday night the hard drive was corrupted and she was the last user). But I had diarehha and some vomiting before I could even leave the house, so I slept after coming home from the hair shop. Only this morning did I realize what I needed to do was restart my anti depressants because I had weened myself and thought I was doing well but I realized that I now need them to get on with my life that is what they are made for after all. Here is the pic that she insisted on taking of me with the baby.
