I had a dream that really made me think about my life.....
I was with a man in this dream and there was such an intense chemistry between us that we were almost clandestine to be with each other. But with all of the heat between us he showed me that he didn't care for me or even love me. This was something that did not surpass me when I found out. This revelation made me think about my past relationships and I couldn't help but think that it was M because even though he helped me get over and put a bad relationship to an end. He still used me and there was this thing about him that always made me hot for him. But tonight I was speaking with my sister and she told me not to blow this dream off as nothing. Then I thought about it the first boy that I wanted was S and he was sweet to me because he knew that I wanted him and that I was young and naive and he did not take advantage of me when he could have. But then I thought about it more and it all starts with my Dad the classic no dad in my life making me emotionally screwed up. And wanting something that I grew up without and that is the unconditional love of a man.
